Your Bespoke Psychopath

When I was 12, I had just moved to Sun Prairie.  The first girl I befriended here treated me like shit, though I did not realize it at the time.  I started 7th grade.  My depression from previous years came back around November, and I cut myself for the first time on February 17th.  I attempted suicide twice that summer.  I thought the world was going to end.  I thought there was nothing left for me.

I’m so glad I was wrong.

OH EM GEE I TOTES BELIEVE YOU

wow nosy anon is nosy

but whatever.

I was tested in 8th grade after the school psychologist suggested it because I was not living up to the potential my parents saw in me.

I scored a 152.

Which, in turn, made my life even more difficult as their expectations became even higher.

Yup.

I actually have found that bipolar disorder is fairly similar to cancer.  Yes, okay, they are both different diseases.  But they have similarities, too.

The stages in between bipolar episodes could be seen as a type of remission.  It’s always possible you will never have another episode, but it’s also possible that the episodes will come back.

Both diseases tend to get worse the more “episodes” you have.  No one I know that has died from cancer has died the first time.  It’s the second or the third time before their body gives out.

And fun fact: did you know that if the episodes get severe enough, they have the potential to cause permanent brain damage?  That’s why it’s so important to have bipolar disorder (or any other severe mental illness, really) early in life.  I worked with a man the past 3 summers who was severely schizophrenic.  He had gone undiagnosed for almost 50 years, and because of that had the mental capacity of an 8 year old. 

Yup.  Fun stuff.

well thank you :))

56-State 8 facts about your body

I have stretch marks in various places
I am short
I weigh significantly more now than I did in high school (by about 60 or 70 pounds)
My mother disapproves of my weight
I have ginormous biceps
My back is possibly permanently damaged
I popped my kneecap out of place when I was 15
I have had a “belly” for my entire life, even when I was skinny

59-What do you look like?

65-What is your favorite foreplay routine?
It varies.  I am a ginormous fan, however, of cunning linguists IF YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN

70-What turns you on?
biting, light touching, biting, quick glances, biting

78-What’s your dirtiest secret?
I don’t really have one lolol.  How about I watched porn for the first time when I was 12 and it was on lustpuppy LOL

I actually do not have one

HAIL SATAN

Me gusta

1. Shanks!
2. Thank youuuuu :)
3. LOL with my shirt over my head.  Totally.
4. Y U ON ANON?

answered in the last post :)

BUT THANK YOU FOR ASKING <3

Jesus.  Okay.

• 1: Real (first) Name?
  Alexandria
• 2: Current crush!?
  Teddy..hahaha
• 3: Addiction?
  Food
• 4: How tall am I?
  5’4
• 5: Relationship status?
  Technically single
• 6: Girls I trust?
  Andrea, Amy, Morganna, Ellen, Miranda, Jessica
• 7: Boys I trust?
  Teddy (for now anyway =P), and..um..none other ones come to mind.
• 9: Current mood?
  Swell (also, where did 8 go?)
• 10: When was the last time I did something for the 1st time?
  I have no idea
• 11: Confession
  I should be asleep
• 12: Who I miss?
  Andrea
• 13: Who I last hugged?
  Teddy
• 14: Who understands me?
  Andrea
• 15: Someone who is always there for me:
  Andrea
• 16: Last Text?
  “See you then!” from Teddy
• 17: Who’s a stranger:
  What does that even mean
• 18: Who makes me laugh the most?
  Andrea
• 19: Who I do the craziest stuff with?
  Andrea
• 20: Who makes me smile?
  Lots of people
• 21: What am i listening to?
  “Scavengers of the Damned” by Aiden
• 22: Turn on’s?
  biting, hair pulling, being sexy in general
• 23: Turn offs?
  Misogyny
• 24. Bestfriends?
  Andrea and Amy
• 26: Second confess?
  Where the fuck is 25 and also I can’t find my cat
• 27: What I hate?
  Dumbasses
• 28: Who’s annoying?
  The dishwashers at work
• 29: Favorite Sex position?
  depends on my mood
• 30: Last person to give you butterflies?
  Teddy

See, I would just invite him over to my house, but I live with my parents still >.<