I should go to sleep. I’m supposed to be on a strict sleep schedule. But I don’t want to go to sleep. I’m afraid that I’ll have nightmares. I don’t have them much anymore, but when I do, they’re vivid. And I can’t tell if they’re real or not. I don’t know if you’ve ever had one of those, but they’re really scary. For me, I watch a car crash over and over again. The way it happens varies, but it always ends the same. And I watch helpless. I guess…I don’t know really. Certain things happened in my life I’m never going to get over. And they follow me even when I’m asleep.